I am my own Holy Man

"I am my own holy man", I said to Paul, my husband after I read this book ‘The Holy Man’. He said, "Exactly, then you have no expectations from anybody what so ever". So true.

This gave me a big cookie which my brains have been waiting to chew on. I attended a discussion once called 'Breakdown to breakthrough'- ‘why bad things happen to good people’, was a great inspiration to this topic. The speaker made me realize that every time we face a problem we need to look at it by stepping away and that’s when things happen miraculously. It is the same as "detachment". It doesn’t happen overnight, one has to be aware of it to practice and silently meditate…

In the book "the holy man", there is a grieving man who has lost his wife and the thought of not being able to see her again was unbearable. The holy man says, "you are lucky she did not separate from you, in that case you would have to suffer the added pain of rejection. Now, all you have to do here is ‘give her back’. She never was yours, nothing you have is yours and you have to give everything back. Only you are yours". This is a different way of looking at detachment, when you are dead and gone. But how do you detach yourself from others while still alive and yet enjoy and love and play and rejoice in everything that comes your way…? Well one way to look at it is - just imagine the whole world is a huge stage and all of us are actors. All you need to do is while talking, be aware that you are delivering a dialog, while eating or any other activity just watch yourself doing that activity. To put it differently 'you are your own audience'! It gets very exciting while you are doing this. Why restrict it only when problems beset you, carry it on and apply it each and every minute you are here whether there are problems or no problems.

You are your own listener. You don’t need anybody to view your problems for you because the most valuable inputs come from within you. When you are listening to your inner voice then you are in total control of your emotions and you will start slowly seeing yourself as you want others to see you. You can cry when you want to cry, laugh when you want to laugh, be a mad man/woman when you want to be and not bother about the world.

In this state the detachment just happens… effortlessly. But when you get involved with yourself and others or problems that you face or when that awareness disappears then nothing is under your control and you find yourself crying instead of laughing and the whole script and the dialog delivery is messed up. And then when the curtain closes all you have is regrets for yourself. So its never late, all you have to be is "be aware". Wake up to the awareness in you... Wake up to the "Holy Being" within you... Wake up to the "Spiritual Being" within you.